It’s the Friday after Election Day and it feels like all the hate and violence that’s been unleashed in this election is reaching new heights and exploding. I feel a mix of emotions and have been in a depressed fog ever since learning our country decided to elect Donald Trump as our next president. It’s been awhile since I’ve done a Gratitude Friday post and I feel, now more than ever, it’s important to take stock of that which we are grateful for.
Those of you who know me personally know that I have always been a motivated, intellectual go-getter with a love of learning. I have always been one who dreams of travel and career more so than having a family. When I got pregnant 2 years ago it was a huge shift in my world.
I think many people, including myself, didn’t expect that I’d become a stay-at-home mom (SAHM). Well, really I’m working from home, but the point is my daughter is not in day care and stays with me all day. It wasn’t a conscious decision more so than it just sort of happened on it’s own and you know what? I surprisingly love it! Don’t get me wrong, I miss parts of being in the work force and academia, but for now, being at home is where my heart is at.
I am enjoying watching my daughter grow and learn. I enjoy taking her to the park, making homemade meals for her, going on adventure hikes, playing with her toys, running errands together, and most of all nap time 😉
I love not having to rush quality time with her. We get all day to spend quality time together. The academic in me loves learning about milestones and watching them unfold right in front of me. I love watching her language develop. I love watching her play with other kids on play dates or at the park.
I love being her mom.
Being a SAHM isn’t all rainbows and sunshine though. It is Hard with a capital H sometimes. You rarely get time to yourself – not even to go to the bathroom. You are constantly being touched and needed which can become overwhelming sometimes. Tantrums and crying spells are hard on your nerves.
Being an introvert, I find it hard not being able to have much downtime to recharge myself. I’m constantly going between wanting to go to bed early to catch up on my sleep and wanting to stay up late so I can get some alone time. The job of SAHM is not for sissies!
But you know what? This Type A, overachieving, nerdy mama is thrilled that life forced her to fully immerse herself in motherhood for these early years. I have every intention of going back to school and pursuing academic and career endeavors. For now, though, I’m enjoying these moments as a SAHM – even if sometimes I want to hide in the bathroom to get some peace and quiet.